The title, to many, is melodramatic in and of itself I am sure. But for someone who has lived and breathed Crossfit for close to 7 years- this was an insanely difficult decision to make. I start back in 2010, trying it out at one of my best friend’s husbands’ gyms and then making my way to my home away from home’s CrossFit gym- a loyal member to this day. Man, Crossfit taught me a lot about myself; confidence, strength, and the willingness to endure. I can lift an insane amount of weight (more than some guys) and kick ass at intense, not too mention winding,  cardio workouts. Crossfit, in a nutshell, gave me life! You’re reading this thinking “Then why are you leaving?”. In the recent years, I started to feel differently. Especially coming back from having our daughter Nola it was a difficult journey back to “Pre-Baby Kristen”. To be honest, in a lot of ways I haven’t gotten back there and maybe never will.  My passion and love for Crossfit were always there but the time I used to dedicate to improving my fitness I found has fallen short. Becuase of that I would watch as people around me continued to excel and I plateaued. If I wasn’t plateauing I was injuring myself because I couldn’t set my ego aside (reminding myself over and over of how I once performed.) “Why can’t I run as fast? Jump as high? Lift as heavy? Why is it so hard to breathe? Why do I want to give up? And then it turned into, “If this isn’t making me happy anymore then why am I paying to be here?” The answer: Becuase this gym, and the people in it are my second family. I’ve known some of the members since the first day I stepped foot into the gym; not to mention the owners. But like seasons; things change. The gym has changed and not to say that’s a bad thing because I’m not. It has changed for me in the sense that I need to try something different to make me the best version of myself. Earlier in the year, I would finish workouts; sit down to catch my breath- look around and tears would develop. I would get so down on myself and at the end of the day I’m not the type of person that can plug in and focus on JUST the workout; I would find myself always comparing and it would eat at me.

Let me tell you though- I am completely lost. I have researched every possible alternative and I don’t know what’s my next best move. I keep being pulled back into the longer cardio sessions and lighter weight training. I would like to lean out and I know I need more cardio in my life. All the times I have said, “You will never catch me in a “globo” gym again.” I am beginning to eat my words. I believe what my body needs is a lower impact style workout. Here I am rambling. I mostly wrote this post so that I could tell all my friends (from the gym) at one time that I’m going to be leaving. And to make everyone realize that the gym was a lot more to me than just going and getting a workout in. That’s why this has been such a difficult decision to make and why I’m dedicating an entire Blog Post to it.

I love you all! See you again!

Well, I still have a few more weeks left of my membership 🙂